If A Blog Falls In The Woods, Who Gives A Shit?

Taking another break from this.

Sad to the three of you who read this......... :)

See ya soon.....maybe.

Retro Video #21 and #22

Since I can barely seem to do this weekly, here are two videos. I love both of these songs so much - and with songs about heaven and heart and soul, how can you go wrong? I mean, you can, but I suppose that's a bitch for another time. Just like me.

Enjoy!

Man, I Can Breathe A Little Easier

LA CAGE is open. And apparently, I DON'T suck.

And I'm feeling a little bit better. There's still some frustrations on my part, but we are moving along nicely.

Oh. And boys are stupid.

That's all I got for now.

Mental Vomit 3

I should NEVER listen to myself.

I approached my upcoming technical week for my current show with a little bit of fear. Then I talked myself into believing that night one would go smoothly.

Son of a bitch, I was wrong.

On the flip side, I have had a lovely email exchange with my ex-girlfriend. It's wonderful to reconnect - and to remember why I cared so much for her in the first place.

And this show seems to be therapy. I mean, how can it not be? You hear I AM WHAT I AM so many times, you start to wonder about things............

Mental Vomit 2

I am two hours away from the first day of tech for my current show.

I am a bit tired, in desperate need of running lines with a human being and not just by myself, and a tad irritable.

In other words, I'm ready for tech.

And I have enough on my mind with the show---all the other junk that is floating around in there is making me loony.

Oh, and the ex-girlfriend has accepted the Facebook request. I hinted that "if she had any questions, please let me know." This could get interesting......maybe.

Onward.

Mental Vomit 1

Here I sit at home on a Saturday night. I am content, yet a bit restless.
A glass of wine to my right, classical on the CD player.

The mental funk began Thursday.

Had a couple of castmates over for dinner/to run lines. It was dinner and drinking.

And in-depth discussion. VERY in-depth discussion. The kind where I relate experiences and relationships I have not talked about in ages. I am playing a character in my current show who has been in a relationship for 20 years. So the three of us talked about the good, the bad, and the ugly.

My mind has been in overdrive ever since. Because of the discussion, I have Facebooked the ex-girlfriend, crossing my fingers she will accept it, and wondering what she'll say when we have "the talk". Because we need to. And because she is the longest relationship I've ever had. And that's a little sad.

It is moments like these that I wish I could look to the couch, see my partner, smile, say "I need to talk about something", go sit next to him, and unload the mental baggage.

Instead, it's bed alone with a mind that won't shut down for a few hours.

Excuse me, but that sucks a little.............

Retro Video #20

I need this today.

Probably one of the most beautiful songs I know.